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[13 May 2008|01:34pm] |
Registered for wedding gifts at Target and Bed Bath and Beyond yesterday. Lots of good stuff. I'll be happy if we get any of it :p I think it would be the most fun thing in the world to take a bar code scanner gun to all my favorite stores and scan all the things I've ever wanted... and have people get them for me... for my birthday.. or for me just being me ;) Ok so I know it'll never happen, but that would be hella fun.
Birthday this year was pretty good, even though I haven't seen my family yet, the family party is tomorrow cuz it's combined with my dad's birthday (which is Friday). I was all freaking out about turning a quarter of a century years old, and I get a birthday card in the mail from Mom reading "Happy 26th Birthday!!". You know you're getting old when your parents have to count back from your birthyear to figure out how old you are, and they make mathematical errors in the process.
Edna surprised me by getting the day off work and making me a homemade carrot cake. It tasted really good, but looked hilarious. It didn't turn out quite how she'd planned and was a little concaved in the middle. But it was the cutest thing I'd ever seen. Then we went over to Maria's and had pizza and played Wii. I swear I'm gonna get one of those with my economic stimulus check in June.
Chex graduated basic dog training the same day me and Edna's therapy sessions ended. I think Chex was more sad about her classes ending, though. I'm going to try to get her into agility cuz I found out that her food motivated self will happily run up the A-Frame, go over the teeter-totter, and jump the hurdles. Now it's just a matter of money to get her in the classes. Give her something to do with her never-ending energy.
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[13 May 2008|09:17am] |
So I was thinking yesterday about the music classes I took in Germany, and just the instruments I played. I was thinking about Major and Minor keys... and I was elated to find a way to describe how I feel right now. I feel like my life is in a Minor key. No matter how happy the tune or what great things happen its still in a depressing, sad, cut on my wrists kind of minor key. And it doesn't help that this damn lupron is turning me into a crying pshyco bitch.
Everyday I pray, to whatever higher power will listen, to be stronger for her but then I just feel like more of a failure. I'm begging everyone to please, pray, send positive energy, or whatever to Sara this week. We should get a call from the Doctors and maybe will know something maybe we won't. If we just had a name... I'd feel a lot better. "Tis harder knowing it is due, than knowing it has come" -- Emily Dickenson.
In other news I'm at my mom's watching the kids and we found a litter of kittens in the back yard. They are about 10 weeks old. If anyone wants a kitten or knows of someone who may want a kitten please let me know. We'd rather find good homes for them than take them to a shelter.
Oh P.S. if anyone knows something about LJ maybe you can help. Everytime I post to friends only it ends up being like I posted privately b/c no one can see my posts. Not sure why its doing that or if I screwed something up.
Thanks guys,
meg
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[11 May 2008|03:43pm] |
It may be hard for you to feel connected to anyone today, dear Scorpio. You are probably better off just keeping to yourself. If you are feeling sad or depressed, it is best to work through these feelings on your own. Other people are not apt to be too sympathetic to your situation. You are better off sticking to your work in order to keep the demons out of your head.
Don't you just love it when your horoscope is right on? Too bad I don't have any actual work though to fend off my demons.
All I have is a promise I made to someone that I wouldn't let my demons win...but is that promise still good if they don't seem to care?
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[10 May 2008|11:03pm] |
So this is what it's like to hit rock bottom. To have nothing and nobody.
I guess in the end I deserve it.
There are blows that change a person, some temporarily, some forever.
I will never be the same. A lot of things in me died tonight, a lot of things that were struggling to stay alive at all.
But such is life. We reap what we sow.
There are so many things I need to say, but they fall on deaf ears so I will bury them along with everything else.
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| A Second Encore |
[08 May 2008|05:26pm] |
Just started Mission Pharmacy, which is very laid back. I can see myself liking a job where you can eat any of the food off the shelves for free. It has got to wreak havock on their inventory, either that or they are making so much bank they don't even care. I'm hoping it's the latter since they're a local business and have to compete with Rite Aid, Walgreen, Meijer, and Goliath himself, Wal-Mart.
I heard we're the busiest pharmacy in town though, so.
Post-graduate life has been lazy and predictable. I'm used to the allegro and worry presented by class work, so transitioning into demandlessness is always a little uncomfortable. Happily then, I joined a book club (yet unnamed) and am hoping either a) join a writing club or b) start a writing club. I want this to be a summer of doing: reading, writing, exploring, ect.-ing. Mt. Pleasant is limited in its wealth of distractions but I'm sure I can create my own entertainment. And in order to expedite the entertainment-hunt, I got a bike. Although I'ven't need transportation of the vehicular kind in quite some time, a bike will get me moving, namely faster.
My parents still haven't moved into their house, which I still believe is a money pit. But they love it, so who am I to argue. No one, that's who. I'll be home for the next few days though, so I'll finally be able to see it, and according to everyone who's every lived, it's lovely. So I'm a wee-bit excited to see it.
In other news: the Clinton machine is officially crazy and I deleted my Myspace and I almost feel like an adult.
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| it's been a long time, i feel it too... |
[07 May 2008|02:43pm] |
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"Difference of Vengeance and Wrongs" - Misery Signals |
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and then sometimes, those great men, say their sorry in the smallest, cutest ways ever.
Kayti has left me to go home for the summer...can't say i blame her, i'd leave this place ASAP if i could, but alas, i work here. so, no dice. but friendships are good and stronger than ever - the few, remaining real ones that i do have (referring also to statement #1) and it feels nice...
assuming i still get this Saturday off work like i asked for three weeks ago, I will be going to the Misery Signals/Evergreen Terrace/As I Lay Dying show...very excited for MS and ET. i haven't been to a "hardcore" show in a long time, this ought to be interesting.
debating if i want to drive/fly down to Nashville to visit Matt this summer and do a mini photo-documentary adventure like i had planned, OR, stay in MI and save money to buy a Mamiya medium format camera and or a 4x5 graflex press camera. either options offer me photographic opportunities...i guess i'll just have to see how restless i get by the end of August...
DEMF is at the end of the month, and Richie Hawtin is playing a set at 10:30 Sunday night. i have no reason not to be there, other than affording the gas to get there and back. any takers?
tschus.
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[06 May 2008|03:04pm] |
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and sometimes, even great men, can be idiots.
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[05 May 2008|09:00pm] |
Everything is so peaceful right now.
The sun is setting and I can hear the distant sounds of traffic, like a quiet, suburban lullaby. School is done. Chris the undergraduate is now Chris the diplômé. Everything is painted so prettily in the early summer gloaming and I can't help but wonder, what comes next?
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[01 May 2008|11:48pm] |
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being sick without cable blows. however, renting the complete 2nd and 3rd season of Sex and the City has been captivating. and also, being able to listen to the Red Wings game on the internet is also great. end of the 2nd period = Red Wings: 7, Avalanche: 1.
Colorado is sucking so much ass. it's great.
the stress of semester's finals has given me kidney pain, a fever, and now a wicked head cold and sore throat. however, it's finally over. for now. and my kidneys don't hurt anymore at least.
although i still feel hazy....
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